I met BAruch through my yahoo group. He seems like such a sweet guy. Okay he is 62, and lives in the staes. I am glad I ahve someone I can talk to. I just hope he does not get too mad when I don't reply all the time. His last email was in effect that he was worried about me. I am so not used to having my friends worry so much about me. A couple of them do, but most know how stubborn I can be.

Well exactly 7 days until I go in for my c-spine surgery. As it gets closer I am noticing the nerves ar getting a bit frazzled. I knew they would do that. After all this is a complicated and somewhat dangerous sugery. I have had thoughts of backing out, but I know if I do not go for surgery, I could complicate things even more for myself. Bottom line is....I have no choice but to have the surgery. Frazzled or not, on April 4th I am going to go in and have my neck fixed. Hopefully no major issues arise after the surgery...

Due to the changes at Zoomshare, I have removed anything involving adult content from this site and moved it to a new locale

I am getting so frusterated with trying to find a bf let alone some "fun" I know I am going to probably see some negativity. I am seriously going to give up on dating all together. I have even changed the people I have been interested in see, but that has not even worked. So seriously ahy do I even try.

So I am getting closer to my surgery date...April 4th....I am a bit concerned about it. I know I have nothing to worry abut, but being a high risk sugery can be nerve racking.